Envy

Envy
Jealousy
There're negative words
but
it can lead to positive manner
IF
the intention is sincere and clean.

For instance,
I get envy and jealous with
those who have strong iman
great taqwa
they can beat the syaitan most of the time

I knew if i ask them
they'll say, we're not perfect
our iman can be up and down like the roller coster

I conclude that
to be like them,only Allah in their heart
Allah comes first
It's not easy to do,but easy to be say
that's what we called mujahadah.

I'm weak,
then find those people who can makes you stronger
and closer to Allah
find a right friend,a right spouse

I'm still at the stage

who are still thinking about what PEOPLE will say

instead of what ALLAH would say

Astaghfirullahalazim..