Envy

Envy
Jealousy
There're negative words
but
it can lead to positive manner
IF
the intention is sincere and clean.

For instance,
I get envy and jealous with
those who have strong iman
great taqwa
they can beat the syaitan most of the time

I knew if i ask them
they'll say, we're not perfect
our iman can be up and down like the roller coster

I conclude that
to be like them,only Allah in their heart
Allah comes first
It's not easy to do,but easy to be say
that's what we called mujahadah.

I'm weak,
then find those people who can makes you stronger
and closer to Allah
find a right friend,a right spouse

I'm still at the stage

who are still thinking about what PEOPLE will say

instead of what ALLAH would say

Astaghfirullahalazim..

I found it

One night,the night that led me to the awesomeness. I was surfing internet,facebook to be more specifically. and I saw a link entitled "Nation Builders: Stories of the prophets" organized by al maghrib and qabeelat ihsaan. In the clumsiness because it was the last night for the early bird's price, i paid the fee. I felt Allah really want me to go there because He knew how I always want to know more about the prophets and of course to bring me closer to Him. Shaykh Riad,my mualim,my teacher. He is right. I don't have a choice either to love him or to love him. His energy,his method of teaching,subhanallah! From that day, i'll not leave this institute. The teacher,the enviroment,new friends are all adorable. I can feel the islamic brotherhood there. Shaykh is right,once I understand the stories of the prophets,i'll understand the Quran more. It soo true. Now,I can relate it. I miss the course. I really miss it. angd i'll go for the next course,insyallah. I already found it,i always want to study about my religion because Im still using my standard 6 knowledge about Islam. I even forgot most of the islamic history,the war,the prophets. Now,i already found the place,i'll never
leave it by the will of Allah.

Pic courtesy of Qabeelat Ihsaan